I deleted my social media apps, then I finally got access into my blog account. So, I had been thinking on if I should or not, but the truth is I was afraid to do anything I want to do. Scratch that- I am scared to be myself, but I do not want to be that way any longer. I have lived my entire life trying to avoid being me because of the consequences that I thought came with being myself. But that’s not true. The truth is: I am learning Gods word and it shows that the things that seem to be so messed up and terrible that happened in our lives is for the greater good. Look at Jesus: He was brutally murdered all for remission of our sins! To die and be in the grave for 3 days and 3 nights- To be raised on the 3rd day and is still currently sitting on the right hand of The Father, making intercession for us! He understands our struggles because he went through being in this flesh! He trusted The Father no matter what was done to him! He suffered for us!
What if our suffering is also our charity to another, to understand their pain in order to love on them and help them feel seen. Help them know that ultimately it is God who loves them and help had me go through (insert whatever the pain was/is here) for you, and you and you and also for me! Because it helps me be a more compassionate servant of God. To know pain and to have empathy! To be able to love instead of show hatred. All because I know how it feels to feel so alone or so misunderstood.
God is perfect and so loving that he has us go through similar situations so we won’t be alone. We get ourselves in so many messed up situations and here he is to get us out! Even our parents, and our parents parents! Basically: The sin that we commit, once we want to turn away God is there to help us and we have people that are examples in the Bible of tragedies happening to them and God being right there!
I feared being myself, I feared writing this post because I feel like I don’t have anything to offer, but that’s not my decision. My decision is to choose life and live and That is to Trust God! So I’m walking by Faith and doing it anyways. And right now “it” is writing this very blog post admitting my fear of being myself due to me not wanting to be discarded! I have faith that God is leading me to do this very blog post to encourage someone else and tell them: You are indeed Enough and You can do all things through Christ, and don’t take my word for it: Trust In God!! In Jesus name
In order to beat my fear of being myself, I choose to be myself.
“O LORD, thou hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, And art acquainted with all my ways. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: Marvellous are thy works; And that my soul knoweth right well.” Psalm 139:1-3, 14 KJV
“I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” Philippians 4:13 KJV
“Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.” Matthew 16:24 KJV
Fight the sin by Trusting God and Obeying him
“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” 2 Timothy 1:7 KJV
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