PO3TIC J

Variance

Being Dismayed is what creates friction, superficial- vanity: thinking on what is vain which leads to pain… That cause shame, discord: conflict: strife: schism: a prison in your mind, your heart is weary because of the bread of sorrows you ate- watch your diet, watch the leaven and don’t consume it, instead refuse it! Fear is not a spirit that God gave! Only Faith! So, Trust in The Lord and be on one accord and not in variance with The Lord! Use Charity because it will never fail and it covers a multitude of sins; it shields against dissension! Avoiding disputes: quarrels: animosity and instead having humbleness of mind which results in perfect peace! Obedience creates Harmony and defeats Variance: the warfare is spiritual, and the carnal creates harmful eruptions!! But God! “He sent HIS word, and healed them and delivered them from their destructions.” Psalm 107 verse 20 KJV! John 8 verse 32 KJV: “And ye shall know the truth and the truth shall make you free.” Keeping The LORDs commandments is not grievous, BUT only PERFECT PEACE!

“He sent his word, and healed them, and delivered them from their destructions.” Psalms 107:20 KJV

“And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” John 8:32 KJV

“Jesus answered them, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Whosoever committeth sin is the servant of sin.” John 8:34 KJV

Galatians 5 KJV

¹ Stand fast therefore in the liberty wherewith Christ hath made us free, and be not entangled again with the yoke of bondage.

²Behold, I Paul say unto you, that if ye be circumcised, Christ shall profit you nothing.

³For I testify again to every man that is circumcised, that he is a debtor to do the whole law.

⁴Christ is become of no effect unto you, whosoever of you are justified by the law; ye are fallen from grace.

⁵For we through the Spirit wait for the hope of righteousness by faith.

⁶For in Jesus Christ neither circumcision availeth any thing, nor uncircumcision; but faith which worketh by love.

⁷Ye did run well; who did hinder you that ye should not obey the truth?

⁸This persuasion cometh not of him that calleth you.

⁹A little leaven leaveneth the whole lump.

¹⁰I have confidence in you through the Lord, that ye will be none otherwise minded: but he that troubleth you shall bear his judgment, whosoever he be.

¹¹And I, brethren, if I yet preach circumcision, why do I yet suffer persecution? then is the offence of the cross ceased.

¹²I would they were even cut off which trouble you.

¹³For, brethren, ye have been called unto liberty; only use not liberty for an occasion to the flesh, but by love serve one another.

¹⁴For all the law is fulfilled in one word, even in this; Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.

¹⁵But if ye bite and devour one another, take heed that ye be not consumed one of another.

¹⁶This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh.

¹⁷For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.

¹⁸But if ye be led of the Spirit, ye are not under the law.

¹⁹Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness,

²⁰Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies,

²¹Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God.

²²But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,

²³Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.

²⁴And they that are Christ’s have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts.

²⁵If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit.

²⁶Let us not be desirous of vain glory, provoking one another, envying one another.

Hatred: A Work of the Flesh

“My fight, without the light…. Had me without sight and no might. Without his mercy, I would have died twice.”

PO3TIC

While we were yet in our sins?… But that does not make sense… all I know is revenge… What’s forgiveness? What’s repentance? I am too disgusting, I am nothing… How can someone die for me and want me to know love when all I see is reasons why I should not be. I should be dead, Why Am I alive? I am going to hide, so the dragon will not see me, that’s it… I will not be me, I’ll will be everything that others speak, and that will be my defence. I’ll walk in this flesh instead of the spirit, I’ll leave food for it so it will not find me, the cravings it requires will distract it and hide me. I hate when it sees me, it speaks unkindly, has me remember everything that has happened to me, that I have done. But what I did not know was it was separating me from the Son; with my iniquities… the disease, the food I left to feed it was killing me slowly… I didn’t know I was dying, all the feeding, it ate dust and dust is us, our faith- that helps us escape. Only God can show us the way, for he paved it… He is the light that shines bright on the darkness, on the wiles of satan, he is our safety, Jesus the Christ, he gave up his life. No greater love than for a friend to lay down his life, and whether we betray him like judas with a kiss or attempt to use grace to commit sin- He died for y’all too, but his word will never come back void, so we must doeth what he saith we should do. For his death while we were yet in our sins, is an act of mercy for he still lives, and his word is still a benefit. The Best benefit package you can ever enroll in, it holds the only way to forgive us of our sins. The only way to eternal life is to seek Christ with all our heart and when he shows up and knocks, we run to the door, for no more do we hide! No more do we hate, no more do we choose death, we choose life, we no longer hide… For when we walk in Spirit, be doers of the word and not only hearers, but he will also come and sups with us, this dust- by him we can fight the temptations of our lust… So, it is a must we put our trust in him and not our own comprehension, for it is detrimental. That we obey his laws,statues, and commands… And stop being afraid to go against man… Believe that Perfect Love is Real, that it is God and with it, through Jesus, we can cast out fear… Put down the bread of sorrows and be of good cheer, for when Our God is near, he is our peace, so Whom shall we fear? Yes he died for my sins, to him I repent, by him I forgive… even myself, for My First fight was the Hate I accumulated of myself because of my dysfunctional perspective, my reflection, my reality I had made was fleshly made by my own imaginations , trying to fight using carnal weapons, which are wicked, full of unbelief that he would even want to die for me.. But that’s the thing, His word says that he did, and I believe Christ, The Tree of Life because I know he can’t lie because he is Truth and Light, And That gives me Joy, which is also my weapon. Knowing that God is in control, I can go forth bold… A Merry Heart is what God provides by creating in us a clean heart, and he can only do that when we do not separate ourselves with our sinning, for then he will depart. Being without Christ is an automatic forfeit because we have no Armor, and we will lose… Consequently, it was my own fault because I chose the abuse. I did not believe he wanted to love me, that I was worth love… The words and my perspective gave the belief that He who created me, created me to be…. Cursed, to await my death, but his grace showed that only he is our help. When I look back every time I cried unto The Lord, he came and saved the day, then I would go back to the same Ole’ wicked ways, walking away from Faith and walking into fear. Affliction caused God to draw nearer, for I found myself crying more to him and reading his word. Then he gave me my two-edged sword, and he teaches me to fight, and that is by my Cry. Our weapons are not carnal, but spiritual- We must walk in the word of God and not Philosophy of men, which is physical. Once we put down the food that feeds the flesh which is wickedness, we can feed the Spirit which is Truth, which is Love, which is Obedience- Then we learn that it is the sin that is grievous. When His Way becomes Our Life, when we surrender then We can win Our Fight. Philippians 4:13, We have strength when we do all things through Christ.

Witchcraft

When you speak to a man like you are in authority, you do things out of order.

“Let all things be done decently and in order.”
‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭14‬:‭40‬ ‭KJV‬‬

Twisting your hips and that look in your eye. Thinking about all the ways you can dine on another’s heart. How you can deceive and rip a man apart! Disobedience, for we were made from man for man- Disobedience is as witchcraft!! To dominate the man, to disrespect him and bite the hand that you were made from!!! “My body my choice” is your voice, but you murder your body daily!!! You kill the seed, even when he gets on his knees and pleads, you kick him down! YOU HELPED HIM TAKE OFF HIS CROWN! You put his head under the water and kept it under until he drowned!! Now he hates himself, he chooses death! He expresses his masculinity in power, wealth- And not The Authority that God gave him! In fear of being of good cheer!! So nobody will think he’s scheming! Maybe if we started believing, maybe that would help them achieve and stand on God!! We are the Helpmeet, used as bait for satan to defeat: MAN, from the beginning satan used us, in Job he used us, in Samson he used us and more! We have a choice! We need more!!! More God in our hearts, cease from wickedness and obey The Laws written in your heart!!! Know that this is bigger than us, and we must put our trust in The Most High God!! We must walk in The Spirit, a Meek and Quiet Spirit is great Price to God!! Wouldn’t you rather be Written in the book of Life? Wouldn’t you rather be known and loved by Jesus, and Jesus the Christ? Wouldn’t you rather be in Peace instead of every thought and emotion being released? It’s a way and that is to Obey and to Our Father in Heaven in Jesus name We Pray! And God will protect us and we can leave in Peace!! We can find rest in our souls if to Jesus our burdens we release! We must put our Trust in God and know that He is able to Protect us, and give us safety! Create us a life we will love to live despite the trials and tribulations! A life that leads to eternal life, to eternal Peace! Dwelling with God forever, but first we must release: The anger, the fear! The strife and vain glory! We must stop trying to live our story and live HIS will- we must love our Brother, for if we don’t love our Brother who we see then we don’t love HIM…

“He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love. Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another. There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love. We love him, because he first loved us. If a man say, I love God, and hateth his brother, he is a liar: for he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen, how can he love God whom he hath not seen? And this commandment have we from him, That he who loveth God love his brother also.”
‭‭1 John‬ ‭4‬:‭8‬, ‭11‬, ‭18‬-‭21‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭11‬:‭28‬-‭30‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“Let no man deceive you with vain words: for because of these things cometh the wrath of God upon the children of disobedience.”
‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭5‬:‭6‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“Likewise, ye wives, be in subjection to your own husbands; that, if any obey not the word, they also may without the word be won by the conversation of the wives; while they behold your chaste conversation coupled with fear. Whose adorning let it not be that outward adorning of plaiting the hair, and of wearing of gold, or of putting on of apparel; but let it be the hidden man of the heart, in that which is not corruptible, even the ornament of a meek and quiet spirit, which is in the sight of God of great price. For after this manner in the old time the holy women also, who trusted in God, adorned themselves, being in subjection unto their own husbands: even as Sara obeyed Abraham, calling him Lord: whose daughters ye are, as long as ye do well, and are not afraid with any amazement.”
‭‭1 Peter‬ ‭3‬:‭1‬-‭6‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the church: and he is the saviour of the body. Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing. Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it; that he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word, that he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish.”
‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭5‬:‭22‬-‭27‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He that loveth his wife loveth himself. For no man ever yet hated his own flesh; but nourisheth and cherisheth it, even as the Lord the church: for we are members of his body, of his flesh, and of his bones. For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother, and shall be joined unto his wife, and they two shall be one flesh. This is a great mystery: but I speak concerning Christ and the church. Nevertheless, let every one of you in particular so love his wife even as himself; and the wife see that she reverence her husband.”
‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭5‬:‭28‬-‭33‬ ‭KJV‬‬

Don’t be like Saul:

“For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, And stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because thou hast rejected the word of the LORD, He hath also rejected thee from being king.”
‭‭1 Samuel‬ ‭15‬:‭23‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“Repent; or else I will come unto thee quickly, and will fight against them with the sword of my mouth. Notwithstanding I have a few things against thee, because thou sufferest that woman Jezebel, which calleth herself a prophetess, to teach and to seduce my servants to commit fornication, and to eat things sacrificed unto idols. And I gave her space to repent of her fornication; and she repented not. Behold, I will cast her into a bed, and them that commit adultery with her into great tribulation, except they repent of their deeds. And I will kill her children with death; and all the churches shall know that I am he which searcheth the reins and hearts: and I will give unto every one of you according to your works. But unto you I say, and unto the rest in Thyatira, as many as have not this doctrine, and which have not known the depths of Satan, as they speak; I will put upon you none other burden. But that which ye have already hold fast till I come. And he that overcometh, and keepeth my works unto the end, to him will I give power over the nations: and he shall rule them with a rod of iron; as the vessels of a potter shall they be broken to shivers: even as I received of my Father. And I will give him the morning star. He that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the churches.”
‭‭Revelation‬ ‭2‬:‭16‬, ‭20‬-‭29‬ ‭KJV‬‬

Jazebel did things out of order, she disobeyed God! She believed in devils- not God! She ruled over men! She did things without consulting her head, even when she did things he wanted! She never repented! She just painted her face! Still oblivious to Gods mercy and Power to do as he said!!! She thought she was getting away with her actions of being a “Bad Bi%#h!!! She had the Power, the money, and fame!! For years!!! And then it all came crashing down!!

“Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.”
‭‭Galatians‬ ‭6‬:‭7‬ ‭KJV‬‬

Another diss poem to my flesh! Testimony: I use to “protect” myself by having a “I don’t need nobody, especially not no man!” And I acted as so, but learning God and obeying his word- God has helped me truly!!! He has allowed me to see that if we obey God then we can have Peace! Then We can have the desires of our hearts!! And he will strengthen us and give us Comfort and Peace through the Pain! He did it for his Son Jesus! He is our example!! Bless God!! I am so thankful! Peace and Love!!

For Jesus!!! And the lake of fire is forever, I wouldn’t want my worst enemy in there so we must overcome evil with good!!

“Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭12‬:‭21‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“Great peace have they which love thy law: And nothing shall offend them.”
‭‭Psalm‬ ‭119‬:‭165‬ ‭KJV‬‬

Idolatry

“He that hath no rule over his own spirit is like a city that is broken down, and without walls.” Proverbs 25:28 KJV

“Wherefore, my dearly beloved, flee from idolatry.” 1 Corinthians 10:14 KJV

Aren’t you tired of being mad? Aren’t you tired of being sad? depressed? a mess? angry, full of wrath? Under the craft of the serpent: the tree of knowledge of good and evil; the very one God told you not to eat from in the beginning because all he advises is sinning he disguises as winning. Chasing your emotions, fulfilling the desires of the flesh! My Sister they equal to death!!! Flee wickedness!! And Keep the commandments! Stop chasing the desire persuaded by the liar according to the emotions of the flesh… They are vanity! they will not last! The flesh doesn’t last forever, but instead it is dust!! It is Ashes! Instead focus on your heart and how it is fashioned. Take heed to thyself for it is health! Keep your sins before you, make sure you know your own downfalls! satan can only tempt us according to our own lusts, so it’s a plus to know your shortcomings! Don’t be in despair, for there is a God that sits high and looks low because he cares! Cry unto him and he will guide you and lead the way that he paved. He is the Good Shepherd; The Lord and we shall not want when we allow him to lead… When we allow him to increase the seeds that have been planted and watered. We have to let him show us how to break up our follow ground, in order to let go of the fear, and receive his sprit which is the spirit of power, and of love and of a sound mind. Cease from worshiping your flesh because that’s worshiping death!!! Instead worship The True of Living God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. For he created us!! He knows what we need to have life and live, and it is written in The Bible so turn back to Our God and Praise HIM!!! Without Jesus we have nothing! No Protection! No detection of that crafty serpent! Just out here lacking! Without the Word of God, Without the Fear of The LORD, without keeping the LORD’s commandments our hearts are damaged, and we live in havoc. A city broken down and without walls is what sin leads to, but fearing God and keeping his commandments leads us beside still waters, laying down in green pastures, getting your soul restored, being on one accord with The LORD… Being able to walk through the valley of the shadow of death and fearing no evil, for his rod and staff will bring comfort and no evil will hurt us. For he remembers we are but dust! We must put our trust in The LORD and stop putting our trust in flesh! The LORD is Everlasting peace, but the flesh is everlasting death.

“Only take heed to thyself, and keep thy soul diligently, lest thou forget the things which thine eyes have seen, and lest they depart from thy heart all the days of thy life: but teach them thy sons, and thy sons’ sons;” Deuteronomy 4:9 KJV

“Specially the day that thou stoodest before the LORD thy God in Horeb, when the LORD said unto me, Gather me the people together, and I will make them hear my words, that they may learn to fear me all the days that they shall live upon the earth, and that they may teach their children.” Deuteronomy 4:10 KJV

“And ye came near and stood under the mountain; and the mountain burned with fire unto the midst of heaven, with darkness, clouds, and thick darkness.” Deuteronomy 4:11 KJV

“And the LORD spake unto you out of the midst of the fire: ye heard the voice of the words, but saw no similitude; only ye heard a voice.” Deuteronomy 4:12 KJV

“And he declared unto you his covenant, which he commanded you to perform, even ten commandments; and he wrote them upon two tables of stone.” Deuteronomy 4:13 KJV

“See, I have set before thee this day life and good, and death and evil;” Deuteronomy 30:15 KJV

“In that I command thee this day to love the LORD thy God, to walk in his ways, and to keep his commandments and his statutes and his judgments, that thou mayest live and multiply: and the LORD thy God shall bless thee in the land whither thou goest to possess it.” Deuteronomy 30:16 KJV

I did not know i had to crucify my flesh in order to escape death, until i started taking heed to myself by reading Gods word and realizing God is my Health.

This poem is a diss poem to my flesh that God had me write…

Lasciviousness

“For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world.” 1 John 2:16 KJV

Uncontrollable desires, the burning in this flesh of wickedness. The ways of beasts, the ways of the unclean, the disaster in the moments of self-hatred, thinking its pleasing. Craving a desire that is defiled, only deprivation… Still in devastation, but you do not need no help- you are doing bad all by yourself. Heal, “if none of that would have happened”, no! You can stop now! God said with Him we can overcome all things are possible with He. The Living Tree, mentally- He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds. The wounds of the doom that are held in this flesh that leads to death. Being a zombie that is walking to the 2^nd Death. Kill the lasciviousness: strong sexual desires, not caring about the self-humiliation, the shame afterwards, the confusion from the illusion of the flesh. Like a mirage having your own desires come forth, but they are not even there. You not being aware you have been caught by a snare in the lair of the father of lies. The cries of your soul being dimmed because of grim actions for the satisfaction of your flesh. Flee wickedness! Flee Lasciviousness and think on these things, the things that do not seem like they can cause death and choose wealth. Choose Life and Live! Its not worth it! Think of the blessings you deny for the desire from the lessons that God allowed us to go through. We must needs to Trust God and Obey no matter what flesh says. Do not allow a moment of instant gratification of the flesh have Ye Choose Death…

“And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.” Romans 12:2 KJV

“Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.” James 4:7 KJV

“And take heed to yourselves, lest at any time your hearts be overcharged with surfeiting, and drunkenness, and cares of this life, and so that day come upon you unawares.” Luke 21:34 KJV

“Examine yourselves, whether ye be in the faith; prove your own selves. Know ye not your own selves, how that Jesus Christ is in you, except ye be reprobates?” 2 Corinthians 13:5 KJV

Uncleanness

“For God hath not called us unto uncleanness, but unto holiness.” 1 Thessalonians 4:7 KJV

“They that sanctify themselves, and purify themselves in the gardens behind one tree in the midst, eating swine’s flesh, and the abomination, and the mouse, shall be consumed together, saith the LORD.” Isaiah 66:17 KJV

It is a sin to believe that you are not worth anything. It is a sin to hate your own self, to hate the Person God created you to be. To emulate everyone, you see. To believe God loves everyone but you. Being unclean with the thoughts of wickedness. Thoughts of nothingness. Thoughts of never being capable of love when you were made in his image. When it is self-hatred, suicidal thoughts fill your mind because of your perception of your design. Your mind is filled with uncleanness. Wicked thoughts, as a man thinketh so is he. And ye believe that ye are not worth love when Jesus came and died for you too. You think you are too dirty for God when he said he died for the sins of us all, but it’s our obligation to flee devastation. It’s our obligation to repent and be changed. God is a teaching God and with him we can get rid of pain. We can retain knowledge, wisdom and understanding of how demanding this flesh can be; we can use our faith of a mustard seed to know that God loves us too. And God will show proof, IF we keep his commandments there is nothing that shall be impossible to you, me. Us, the dust- we are tempted according to our own lust, we must put our trust in the Living God, and eat from him- The Living Tree, so that we can become New. Walk in spirit and in truth and rebuke the thoughts that come to our head. The thoughts that make us want to stay in bed, the thoughts that keep us worried, in dread, we must rebuke the thoughts that can make us unclean. The thoughts that come from worry, pain, and shame; The thoughts that keep us from God’s love. The thoughts that have us believe we can never achieve anything. We must release the lies and see the disguise of our demise is satan and see that God is waiting for us to want to be clean and he will lead us to the path that will have us remove the old man, the past; He will bring us into our New Land- If and Only If we stick to HIS plan, will we dwell in Gods love.. Only in God’s word will we stand.

“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28 KJV

“Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.” Matthew 11:29 KJV

“For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:30 KJV

Fornication: Wronging Your Own Soul

Self-abuse was the norm, that’s what my flesh loved. It loved to be told how it was nothing and could only be worth the thoughts that were inside of man’s head. Thoughts of consuming my innocence, thoughts of my body being a tool used to remove the burning sensation of another. I learned to feed the monster so that I would feel something. I thought it was love, but it was not. it was something else, a work of the flesh. It felt like death, it was confusing, consuming my self love bit by bit. Being whispered to in my ear the words that I wanted to hear: “I love you”. But it was not real, just a few minutes of pretend. But that is what my body needed to continue, because that is what my body was introduced to. I did not know it would lead to death. It led me to love, or what I assumed was love. It led me to attention from the one that said he loved me. Wanted to spend time, wanted me to be all mine. But my mind was behind bars in a cell for I was in hell. I hated it and it never really pleased me, I just did it because I thought that is how I show love and receive it. Then I read: “Flee Fornication”…..

“Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body.” 1 Corinthians 6:18 KJV

“What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?” 1 Corinthians 6:19 KJV

“For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s.” 1 Corinthians 6:20 KJV

Work Of The Flesh: Adultery

Exodus 20:2 Context

¹And God spake all these words, saying, ²I am the LORD thy God, which have brought thee out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage. ³Thou shalt have no other gods before me. ⁴Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth: ⁵Thou shalt not bow down thyself to them, nor serve them: for I the LORD thy God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation of them that hate me;

Adultery: Cheating on God

I served, I was nice and kind, I gave my whole mind. I served others and other things. I gave them everything, my all. Falling on my knees to pick up presents from under trees. In disbelief that Friday to Sunday Morning was not 3 days and 3 nights, and I claimed to love Math, but I did not know wrong from right. Those lies, those darts, that food I was served. It had me hurt and confused, because I invited the abuse. I served the misuse of my own Temple. I tore my temple down and served FALSE gods. gods that could not tell me anything but how to hurt myself: That I was all these bad things, so I walked in that way. I did what my horoscope said, I was the image of a bad chick, I was the image of sin. Adultery, I loved the pleasure of wickedness more than righteousness, for the righteousness I saw was mean and rude. The Holier than thou that never gave me some of their food; Turns out they are eating lies too. To get the dart of adultery out of my back, I had to realize I was under attack and that there was something I lacked. The Lord God, He is God and none else. I did not understand until I stopped abusing myself, until I started caring for my health. I had to get his Bible; I had to put down the idols. I do not bow down to anyone but The Living Tree. I do not obey anyone’s voice but HE… even through others we can see if they eat from the Living Tree by their fruit. By their works, we can see; By My works I can see- if I have Faith or if I am committing adultery.

2 Trees in The Midst: One You Eat from and One You Resist

“And the LORD God planted a garden eastward in Eden; and there he put the man whom he had formed. And out of the ground made the LORD God to grow every tree that is pleasant to the sight, and good for food; the tree of life also in the midst of the garden, and the tree of knowledge of good and evil. And the LORD God commanded the man, saying, Of every tree of the garden thou mayest freely eat: but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of it: for in the day that thou eatest thereof thou shalt surely die.”
‭‭Genesis‬ ‭2‬:‭8‬-‭9‬, ‭16‬-‭17‬ ‭KJV‬‬

When he found me, I was weak, bruised, misused

I was afraid and scared of HIM for he stated that he was here for me and he would not harm me. But I had heard that so many times, so I decided to stay blind. I did not want to see what he had for me because of the pain that was brought forth from those same words from another man. A man that was supposed to protect me, respect me. Cover me… But instead, he made me feel like I was disgusting. He made my flesh feel things that a child does not even understand. He made me believe that my plan was death and that I was a curse. Then another, he told me that he loved me and could not wait to become one. He said before he could fit his puzzle to my pieces that I had to release the same things the first man said, so I did. And I stayed even though he made my body feel like it was in darkness. The darkness that you can see figures that are trying to harm you, but they never move. I was consumed with the pain and shame of the disgusting ways of “love”. The love that I had been shown with my eyes had me demise myself. Why couldn’t I stop? What is so wrong with me? So, I just accepted love as being something I could not receive, but I had to give by abusing myself. Abusing my body, love was me being a hobby, a doormat. I was a distraction, a product. I was Property. I did not trust Him because I had learned that love was pain, but my body loved the abuse. My body loved the way that it was misused. I accepted my fate; I accepted my hate, and I existed. I would try and flee when it became too much, but then it became tough to not get the love that I had resisted. It became hard so I went back again and again, and he welcomed me with opened arms in pretend. I did not know they were lies, until I investigated HIS face. When I opened the door to the knock that I had heard, I started to learn the difference between the lie and truth. I started to see the proof. That I was born into iniquity, that I had to deny my flesh. I learned that I fiery darts were satans and I did not have the shield of Faith. Until that day, I let him in. Like a Ferral cat I fought and ran, but he stuck to his plan. For he understands pain and shame. He understands being abused and misused. He showed me how he died brutally so that I could see. He removed the vail from my eyed. And showed me his Love for me. He showed me what love is, he showed me how to forgive. He gave me his word and now like a foreclosed home being remodelled, I am brand new. For he built my home in Spirit and in Truth.

“Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord;”
‭‭Acts‬ ‭3‬:‭19‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“It is good for me that I have been afflicted; That I might learn thy statutes.”
‭‭Psalm‬ ‭119‬:‭71‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, And cleanse me from my sin. For I acknowledge my transgressions: And my sin is ever before me. Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: That thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest. Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: Wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. Make me to hear joy and gladness; That the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice. Create in me a clean heart, O God; And renew a right spirit within me.”
‭‭Psalm‬ ‭51‬:‭2‬-‭4‬, ‭7‬-‭8‬, ‭10‬ ‭KJV‬‬

May God Grant us Repentance of Our sins and show us what is unlike him so we can remove it in Jesus name

I Pray You know that You can leave the abusive relationship with satan too!

Choose Life and Live! Cease from eating from the tree of knowledge of good and evil(satan) and start eating, start back eating from the LIVING TREE(JESUS)

“Behold, the LORD’s hand is not shortened, that it cannot save; neither his ear heavy, that it cannot hear: but your iniquities have separated between you and your God, and your sins have hid his face from you, that he will not hear.”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭59‬:‭1‬-‭2‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“Bless the LORD, O my soul: And all that is within me, bless his holy name. Bless the LORD, O my soul, And forget not all his benefits: Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; Who healeth all thy diseases; Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; Who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies; Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; So that thy youth is renewed like the eagle’s. Like as a father pitieth his children, So the LORD pitieth them that fear him. For he knoweth our frame; He remembereth that we are dust. But the mercy of the LORD is from everlasting to everlasting upon them that fear him, And his righteousness unto children’s children; To such as keep his covenant, And to those that remember his commandments to do them.”
‭‭Psalm‬ ‭103‬:‭1‬-‭5‬, ‭13‬-‭14‬, ‭17‬-‭18‬ ‭KJV‬‬

I Bid you Peace and Love in Jesus Name Amen

A Worm

Vulnerability is not easy, well not for me… it use to be, I was so vulnerable and then I started being on guard. I allowed the storm to scare me and I started to sink. And the water came up above my head and as I was drowning, i decided to do as I read and cry out and tell God and ask him to help me. As water went in my mouth, because I didn’t speak before the water covered me, I still cried out even in the pain and shame I felt.

Why did I have to cry out?? Why do I have to admit to feeling this way?? I don’t even want to feel it! Is all I thought. But as I explained I felt the pressure come off of me. The pressure that felt so familiar. The pressure of suppressing my feelings. That’s why I felt so heavy. I held on to it all my life. Whatever it was, I kept it like a hoarder. I was a hoarder of bitterness. The worst thing you can hoard.

I had no idea how to get it off so I asked God and he led me to keep his commandments. He spoke what to do in my heart for I had read it all the time. And if I love God, I will do it. After releasing the pressure like a pimple being popped it didn’t hurt. And although I have a bit of nervousness of waiting to release, I have to keep in my heart that GOD HEARD ME!!

“and said, I cried by reason of mine affliction unto the LORD, And he heard me; Out of the belly of hell cried I, And thou heardest my voice.”
‭‭Jonah‬ ‭2‬:‭2‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“For thou hadst cast me into the deep, in the midst of the seas; And the floods compassed me about: All thy billows and thy waves passed over me. Then I said, I am cast out of thy sight; Yet I will look again toward thy holy temple. The waters compassed me about, even to the soul: The depth closed me round about, The weeds were wrapped about my head.”
‭‭Jonah‬ ‭2‬:‭3‬-‭5‬ ‭KJV‬‬

The Mercy of the Lord. For this walk I see Gods mercy as vulnerability. He is vulnerable enough to send his Only Begotten Son to die for us and his Son was Vulnerable enough to allow harm to be felt. Beings that never felt pain became vulnerable.

And I can feel, and Lords will you can as well, feel at Peace knowing we are in good company when we are vulnerable.

Be vulnerable with God and allow him to be the Potter. Allow yourself to be HIS Clay…. Allow God to mold you and to work in your life. He is the Perfect Being! The ONLY GOD!

“Thus saith the LORD the King of Israel, and his redeemer the LORD of hosts; I am the first, and I am the last; and beside me there is no God.”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭44‬:‭6‬ ‭KJV‬‬

Being Vulnerable kills the bitter root like some weed spray! Like you done yanked it up and see the root dangling in your face as you hold it up and make sure you pulled it all up! It surely helped me and It’s good to wait to release when it’s not boiling and hot. I feel like I waited too long to say something, but in that wait I was praying and asking God how to hand it because I know the regular way that I had resulted to wasn’t efficient nor effective! It damaged me all my life and I didn’t ever want to be bitter again. So I cried to God.

“Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord: looking diligently lest any man fail of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you, and thereby many be defiled;”
‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭12‬:‭14‬-‭15‬ ‭KJV‬‬

Sometimes Peace are the hard conversations. The parts of our lives where we have to do what God says despite how we feel. And then ultimately after it’s over, each step afterwards you will gain more Peace and Hope: Trusting In God and not leaning on your own understand.

Trusting God is Vulnerability. Join me as I Be Vulnerable so we can fight together!!

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