“My fight, without the light…. Had me without sight and no might. Without his mercy, I would have died twice.”
PO3TIC
While we were yet in our sins?… But that does not make sense… all I know is revenge… What’s forgiveness? What’s repentance? I am too disgusting, I am nothing… How can someone die for me and want me to know love when all I see is reasons why I should not be. I should be dead, Why Am I alive? I am going to hide, so the dragon will not see me, that’s it… I will not be me, I’ll will be everything that others speak, and that will be my defence. I’ll walk in this flesh instead of the spirit, I’ll leave food for it so it will not find me, the cravings it requires will distract it and hide me. I hate when it sees me, it speaks unkindly, has me remember everything that has happened to me, that I have done. But what I did not know was it was separating me from the Son; with my iniquities… the disease, the food I left to feed it was killing me slowly… I didn’t know I was dying, all the feeding, it ate dust and dust is us, our faith- that helps us escape. Only God can show us the way, for he paved it… He is the light that shines bright on the darkness, on the wiles of satan, he is our safety, Jesus the Christ, he gave up his life. No greater love than for a friend to lay down his life, and whether we betray him like judas with a kiss or attempt to use grace to commit sin- He died for y’all too, but his word will never come back void, so we must doeth what he saith we should do. For his death while we were yet in our sins, is an act of mercy for he still lives, and his word is still a benefit. The Best benefit package you can ever enroll in, it holds the only way to forgive us of our sins. The only way to eternal life is to seek Christ with all our heart and when he shows up and knocks, we run to the door, for no more do we hide! No more do we hate, no more do we choose death, we choose life, we no longer hide… For when we walk in Spirit, be doers of the word and not only hearers, but he will also come and sups with us, this dust- by him we can fight the temptations of our lust… So, it is a must we put our trust in him and not our own comprehension, for it is detrimental. That we obey his laws,statues, and commands… And stop being afraid to go against man… Believe that Perfect Love is Real, that it is God and with it, through Jesus, we can cast out fear… Put down the bread of sorrows and be of good cheer, for when Our God is near, he is our peace, so Whom shall we fear? Yes he died for my sins, to him I repent, by him I forgive… even myself, for My First fight was the Hate I accumulated of myself because of my dysfunctional perspective, my reflection, my reality I had made was fleshly made by my own imaginations , trying to fight using carnal weapons, which are wicked, full of unbelief that he would even want to die for me.. But that’s the thing, His word says that he did, and I believe Christ, The Tree of Life because I know he can’t lie because he is Truth and Light, And That gives me Joy, which is also my weapon. Knowing that God is in control, I can go forth bold… A Merry Heart is what God provides by creating in us a clean heart, and he can only do that when we do not separate ourselves with our sinning, for then he will depart. Being without Christ is an automatic forfeit because we have no Armor, and we will lose… Consequently, it was my own fault because I chose the abuse. I did not believe he wanted to love me, that I was worth love… The words and my perspective gave the belief that He who created me, created me to be…. Cursed, to await my death, but his grace showed that only he is our help. When I look back every time I cried unto The Lord, he came and saved the day, then I would go back to the same Ole’ wicked ways, walking away from Faith and walking into fear. Affliction caused God to draw nearer, for I found myself crying more to him and reading his word. Then he gave me my two-edged sword, and he teaches me to fight, and that is by my Cry. Our weapons are not carnal, but spiritual- We must walk in the word of God and not Philosophy of men, which is physical. Once we put down the food that feeds the flesh which is wickedness, we can feed the Spirit which is Truth, which is Love, which is Obedience- Then we learn that it is the sin that is grievous. When His Way becomes Our Life, when we surrender then We can win Our Fight. Philippians 4:13, We have strength when we do all things through Christ.
HIS Clay 