Vulnerability is not easy, well not for me… it use to be, I was so vulnerable and then I started being on guard. I allowed the storm to scare me and I started to sink. And the water came up above my head and as I was drowning, i decided to do as I read and cry out and tell God and ask him to help me. As water went in my mouth, because I didn’t speak before the water covered me, I still cried out even in the pain and shame I felt.
Why did I have to cry out?? Why do I have to admit to feeling this way?? I don’t even want to feel it! Is all I thought. But as I explained I felt the pressure come off of me. The pressure that felt so familiar. The pressure of suppressing my feelings. That’s why I felt so heavy. I held on to it all my life. Whatever it was, I kept it like a hoarder. I was a hoarder of bitterness. The worst thing you can hoard.
I had no idea how to get it off so I asked God and he led me to keep his commandments. He spoke what to do in my heart for I had read it all the time. And if I love God, I will do it. After releasing the pressure like a pimple being popped it didn’t hurt. And although I have a bit of nervousness of waiting to release, I have to keep in my heart that GOD HEARD ME!!
“and said, I cried by reason of mine affliction unto the LORD, And he heard me; Out of the belly of hell cried I, And thou heardest my voice.”
Jonah 2:2 KJV“For thou hadst cast me into the deep, in the midst of the seas; And the floods compassed me about: All thy billows and thy waves passed over me. Then I said, I am cast out of thy sight; Yet I will look again toward thy holy temple. The waters compassed me about, even to the soul: The depth closed me round about, The weeds were wrapped about my head.”
Jonah 2:3-5 KJV
The Mercy of the Lord. For this walk I see Gods mercy as vulnerability. He is vulnerable enough to send his Only Begotten Son to die for us and his Son was Vulnerable enough to allow harm to be felt. Beings that never felt pain became vulnerable.
And I can feel, and Lords will you can as well, feel at Peace knowing we are in good company when we are vulnerable.
Be vulnerable with God and allow him to be the Potter. Allow yourself to be HIS Clay…. Allow God to mold you and to work in your life. He is the Perfect Being! The ONLY GOD!
“Thus saith the LORD the King of Israel, and his redeemer the LORD of hosts; I am the first, and I am the last; and beside me there is no God.”
Isaiah 44:6 KJV
Being Vulnerable kills the bitter root like some weed spray! Like you done yanked it up and see the root dangling in your face as you hold it up and make sure you pulled it all up! It surely helped me and It’s good to wait to release when it’s not boiling and hot. I feel like I waited too long to say something, but in that wait I was praying and asking God how to hand it because I know the regular way that I had resulted to wasn’t efficient nor effective! It damaged me all my life and I didn’t ever want to be bitter again. So I cried to God.
“Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord: looking diligently lest any man fail of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you, and thereby many be defiled;”
Hebrews 12:14-15 KJV
Sometimes Peace are the hard conversations. The parts of our lives where we have to do what God says despite how we feel. And then ultimately after it’s over, each step afterwards you will gain more Peace and Hope: Trusting In God and not leaning on your own understand.
Trusting God is Vulnerability. Join me as I Be Vulnerable so we can fight together!!
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HIS Clay 